So I went shopping in Towson for my brother's graduation and I realized how angry it makes me everytime I come home from Boston and something's different. Even little things- like my mother adds random doilies and crap like that in the bathrooms and I don't like not being around for it. And now that have of Towson looks like it's been bombed  ( Read more... )

the event i've been looking forward to since september 4, 2001 has come and gone. i'm not happy, sad, excited, nervous, or any of the emotions i'd thought i would be. my 8th grade graduation made me very nervous, and i walked too fast down the aisle.

i came to the "multi-purpose room" as i would to school. ready, slightly annoyed, typical rachel ( Read more... )

excited...anxious...nervous...ready...unsure...tired...happy...saddened

all my emotions. that's actually not even all of them. i'm just at such a weird point, i don't know what to expect. it seems i've just been making the most of high school in the last month or two. i can't believe the people i meet, and it frustrates me sometimes that i met them ( Read more... )

i'm not crying of course. i haven't all day. i've even made a conscious effort to try. but i am sad. i guess i am. "my boy" said he's never going to see me again, since i'm moving to boston. this is what i've wanted, to get away from baltimore and everything about it. now i'm second guessing myself. i shouldn't be though. i think this will work out ( Read more... )

this is the end

beautiful friend

this is the end

my only friend, the end

of our elaborate plans, the end

of everything that stands, the end

no safety or surprise, the end

i'll never look into your eyes again...

I guess it's a little soon for that, but it's how i feel. I'm ready to leave those people, but i'm not ready for the real world. I ( Read more... )

another wasted day. not that it would have been better spent in school, it was just wasted. i went to breakfast to meet alec and a few other people or so i thought and the coolest of the cool kids in the senior class were there. just kidding, i didn't mind, just caught me the fcuk offguard. i didn't even get to meet sunny and tony for lunch because ( Read more... )